Nikolai Rakov - Russian Song (arr. G. Ginzburg)

This is a arrangement of the Russian folk song "Blooming were flowers" (original arrangement from 1945). A video of a performance with a singer is here I&fighting with doing uploads recently. The videos I make sound to me so bad compared to what I try to express when playing. Honestly I don&feel like wanting to play piano anymore. Just not want to sit down. I hope I still can put out some videos from time to time until I finally have the right tool to do videos, i.e. a real keyboard mechanic. Hopefully I can find a good upright soon. I&sorry to say it, but take this video as example, I have the feeling every single note is not present with the right dynamics, the right metrum, as I want it to sound. Every video of my hundreds of videos is just an awful approximation of the art I want to make. It is becoming just such a disappointing experience. I think this video sounds really bad and it makes me question what I&even doing with this channel. I&so sick of those digital keyboards. Sick and tired. If a couple hundred people watch my videos regularly, a buck of a donation could really help me to buy such an upright. It will be so good for the future of the channel! I¬ even talking about actually earning something with this hobby, this channel. I realize that¬ how the world or Youtube works. (Again, sorry to come up with things like this, but I want to communicate my situation)